Spooky Is My Personality Type//October 3rd, 2021

This year, the closer October has gotten, I have seen many memes going around similar to this one:

I have a strange sense of humor at times and honestly, I have no idea if these are meant to be insulting to people like me or not, but, like many others in the spooky community, I choose to laugh at them. It can feel a bit cliche at times, being the “spooky friend”. When I was younger, I chose to hide my interests from the world. I was super shy and lived in constant fear of being judged, so I dressed to blend in, and named generic, popular things as my favorites (movies, music, etc.) when asked. It was a miserable, hollow existence and I’m very, very glad that I grew out of it. I find I actually get more compliments now than my younger self ever would have expected to. People can be mean, as they can with anything, but at the end of the day, nothing beats knowing who you are and what makes you happy, and feeling comfortable enough with yourself to express that.

With that said, though, I have come to truly realize that these memes are true. My entire personality really is Halloween!

I know there are people out there who will try very hard to fit into a particular “box” of sorts, be it a fandom, a style, etc., but Halloween was always an effortless thing with me. I never could explain why I loved it the way I did, I just knew that it was part of me, and I connected with it more than I even did with my own birthday. It took me many years, though, to realize just how essential it was to me, and how it influenced almost everything else in my life as well. I didn’t realize it in my teens, but feigning interest in what was popular and “acceptable” was truly damaging to me. Everything that didn’t connect back to Halloween in some way felt fraudulent, even unconsciously. I truly felt as though I didn’t know who I was, and might never know.

But now, when I look around at all of the Halloween goodness I have surrounded myself with, I can honestly say, I know exactly who I am.

And, as I said in the beginning, I don’t know if the memes surrounding that kind of thought process are meant to be a joke, an insult, just lighthearted fun, or what, but I can honestly sit here and say, with no shame, that for me, they are the truth. Every inch of my life is colored by Halloween. What I watch, read, listen to, etc., the sights I want to see if I go on a vacation...it’s all influenced one hundred percent by the things that Halloween has given to me, and if I can’t find some way to relate what I’m doing to something spooky, I tune out.

You could say Halloween is my hobby, but it’s more than that. The closest anyone has ever come to describing what Halloween is to me, was when I was told I treat it as a religion. Some people I know have an Instagram page devoted to Halloween, while another page is their “personal” account, who they are in “real” life. But for me, there truly is no separation. That passion is always there, calendar be damned. It doesn’t matter if it’s October twentieth or January twelfth, I’m always thinking in terms of Halloween. What kind of photo can I create? What memories can I share? How can I manipulate any current situation I’m in to be a little more “spooky”? I have had people tell me they’d like to know more about me, even been asked on a few occasions if I have a “personal” Instagram account, but the truth is, this is me. Halloween is 100% who I am, and I don’t regret, or feel the need to apologize for, that at all. I don’t feel like any less of a person for having an entire personality and life based on one specific thing. If anything, I feel more fulfilled than most people. I truly don’t understand how people function without something like that to center and ground them, and without a holiday to look forward to and focus on even during the worst of times.

People today seem to think that obsessing over autumn or Halloween is some kind of “basic”, but I truly believe that I’m one of a very lucky few. Halloween may be my entire personality, but I wouldn’t trade it for any other personality in the world.

Stay spooky my friends. And if spooky is all you are, know that it’s enough.

I'm Not So Sure About This Social Media Thing//October 94th, 2026

I started this blog six years ago on New Year's Day. I had been through some major life changes in 2018/2019, and really found myself along the way. I felt as though I really had cemented a place for myself within the Halloween community on social media, and often, when I would caption my posts on Instagram with snippets of memories, or a specific feeling that maybe not many others could understand, I would get comments and messages from new friends and followers, complimenting the way I wrote, sometimes even asking for more, and so, the idea to start a blog again was born, and, silly as it may sound, I am very proud that I've managed to stick with it as long as I have. Long work hours, personal problems, bouts of anxiety and depression....none of that has ever fully stopped me from coming back and doing what I love. But, lately, I have been feeling a little off about social media in general, and that's something I really would like to talk about, as I feel it taking a to...

Tales From A Walk: April 5th, 2026; AKA Easterween/Creepster/Zombie Jesus Day, Etc.

Someone asked me once When do you stop mourning the previous Halloween and start looking forward to the next one? That's always been a hard question for me to answer, as I am always looking back or looking ahead, depending on the situation. I often see what was, and what will be again, simultaneously. But today, I went for a walk. Probably my first full walk since Christmas time. That last walk, the remnants were still there. Though it was a different holiday entirely, I still met some rotting pumpkins, and some dead leaves clinging to their brittle branches. Then two back to back winter storms came in February, burying us in two feet of snow both times. I don't know that I've ever felt more like I was in alternate reality, or farther away from Halloween. Today was different, though. When Easter comes, you hear all this talk of spring, and new beginnings, and that sort of thing. And I guess it never really hit me how that can apply to Halloween as well. Wal...

Here’s Where The Story Ends//October 337th, 2020

Everyone has moments in their life when they feel like giving up. That feeling of “This is never going to happen, so why keep trying?” Sometimes it relates to a thing that would be trivial to anyone else, sometimes it’s about something more life-altering. But, we’ve all been there. I have moments of discouragement with this blog. Times I’ve told myself, “No one cares”, or “No one will read this”, etc., but I continue on, for the joy of it. And sometimes, something amazing happens. If you haven’t read my previous post, Have You Seen This Pumpkin? , I would strongly suggest doing so before continuing on with this story. The short version is, I saw a pumpkin in someone’s window when I was twelve years old, and have spent the last twenty-one years trying to find it for myself. When I published that post, I wasn’t expecting much of a response. I was really just hoping to hear someone say, “Yes, my family had this pumpkin when I was a kid!” Or “I once saw this in a neighbor’...

Katie Pumpkinhead’s Pumpkin Patch

Search This Blog